A few weeks ago, I attended a retreat with a group of pastors in our network. The weather couldn’t have been more perfect, nor the location for that matter. We were situated in Akaroa, a beautiful little town on the Banks Peninsula, southeast of Christchurch. We were all tired after a busy year of ministry. It was great to grab a couple of days together where we had no responsibilities except eat, sleep and have an open heart to what God might be saying to us.
The highlight for me was the session by Rowland Forman called “Ten Warning Lights for Highly Vulnerable Leaders.” We all know about warning lights. I have one on my stove top at home. It glows red when the element under the glass is still hot. You have a few warning lights on the dashboard of your car. They are there for your safety as well as your passengers. They are not to be ignored.
There are warning lights also in our spiritual lives. We all have them; not just pastors. Ignore them and not only will you suffer, but also those you lead. These particular “warning lights” from Rowland were so good I wanted others to be aware of them. Withi his permission, I am sharing them in this post.
WARNING LIGHT #1: PRIDE
I could have spent the entire morning just thinking on this one. In every sphere of Christian life and ministry, pride is our greatest enemy and humility our greatest friend. Pride was the first sin – among angels and men. Pride is the essence of all sin, and it is the sin that God finds most offensive. Why does God hate pride so much? Charles Bridges summed it up well, “Pride lifts up the heart against God. It contends for the supremacy with him.”
“The story of King Uzziah, recorded in 2 Chronicles 26 always gets my attention, as I think of my propensity to listen to my own press [I underlined that one with my pen]. In verses 1-14 of this chapter, Uzziah was on a roll. He reigned successfully for 52 years. He was in touch with God, famous and creative [a pastor’s dream]. Verse 15 records a turning point – he was marvellously helped of God until he became aware of his own power. No longer would he listen to the reproofs of those closest to him, and he ended his days as a lonely leper.”
3 questions were posed to us:
- Which aspects of Uzziah’s pridefulness do you do you identify with?
- What are some signals that indicate you may be more prideful than you realize?
- How will you respond to those signals?
I found these questions deeply convicting. There was more propensity toward pride within me than I realized. I answered them by way of a prayer which I wrote down:
“Lord, you know I am a prideful man. I am a glory-seeker. I love admiration and praise; I secretly covet both. I like my accomplishments to be noticed; I want people to think well of me. This affects my relationship with you, with my wife and my children, as well as my church, neighbours and everyone I come into contact with in the world. Please forgive my sin and make pride odious to me. Make it repulsive and revolting. Help me see it in its subtlety so I may abhor it, repent of it and seek to glorify only you.”
WARNING LIGHT #2: PRAYERLESSNESS
“Imagine being able to tell whether something was accomplished through prayer or in the flesh. The scary thing is that churches and ostensibly flourishing ministries can run without prayer. Mark chapter 9 contains the story of the disciples’ inability to heal a demonized boy. They couldn’t work out why they were so busy, yet so powerless. Jesus; answer needs to become a motto in our churches: “This kind can only come out by prayer (some translations add ‘fasting’).” Now there are some things I would try without prayer, but driving out demons is not one of them!”
Here were the questions for us:
- What has our church accomplished lately that could only be attributed to prayer?
- To what extent is this warning light flashing on your spiritual dashboard?
- What steps do you need to take?
Before reading this I would have scored myself quite high on the prayer-chart. I start each day with the Word and prayer. I have a number of people and ministries that I pray for each day. And yet, when it comes down to it, I’m often too busy serving God and writing sermons to spend time on my knees.
Here was my prayer:
“Lord Jesus, I want to grow in my dependence on you. I am self-sufficient by nature. I have too big of a view of my own abilities. My “can do” attitude hinders me from coming to your throne on my knees and seeking your enabling. Forgive me Lord and cause me to seek your sufficiency, all through the day.”
WARNING LIGHT #3: OVERSENSITIVITY
In our ministry amongst God’s people, we can often take things too personally – especially criticism. We need to be reminded we are in a battle (Ephesians 6:12). When a soldier is shot at, he isn’t surprised. His feelings are not damaged. He doesn’t raise his head above the parapet and say, “Did I say something wrong?” He is prepared for it; he’s in a war. When we are oversensitive to the criticism of others, that’s a warning light that we take things way too personally. It’s not about us. It’s about God and his cause.
The question posed to us was:
- To what extent are you over-sensitive to the criticism of others?
Here’s my prayer in response:
“Lord, whenever my feelings are hurt by criticism or negative comments, I forget who I am, and what you have called me to do. I ought to be criticized and opposed if I am faithfully following you. Give me a thicker skin and the ability to welcome criticism – for often it is correct and deserved. Use it to humble and refine me. Amen”
I trust these were helpful to you as they were to me. Perhaps you might think about writing out your own prayers (you are free to use mine!) In my next post we have some more warning lights to cover: Joylessness, fatigue and insensitivity. I think you’ll find them very helpful also.
(You can read Part 2 of this series here)